update

Sorry its been a while sense my last post. The last IUI was a no go. I am happy that the 1st IUI is out of the way I know what to expect now. I am back to the shots of Menpour. I am such a needle pro. When the nurse took my blood for the IUI she pop my vein so I got a nasty bruise on my arm so that vein is out of commission for a while. My others are small. She wasn't the normal lady that draws my blood. The one that normally does it awesome and she a is a student scary huh. I went in for an ultrasound and today and there is nothing growing so they are upping my dosage to what it was before. I was enjoying the last 5 days of the lowest dosage I am moody or having hot flashes. I am still super annoyed by people who jabber about nothing or complain too much.....I lost the 9lbs that I gained. I think it was all water weight. I deep cleaned my 2nd bedroom and made it into my massage/office/scrap-booking/need to get away from hubbie room. Just kidding I love my hubbie. He has been great through all of this. I have been a licensed massage therapist for 10 years and not practicing for years. Now I can yippie. Nothing else to report.

My thought for the day-don't ask

Oh and fertile women suck!

To my Gram!

Well its been a few days sense I posted anything but here is whats been happening. I have been to the doc almost everyday this week. My follicles are at 18,16,15 as of Wednesday. They had me do one more night of Menopur. I should trigger tonight and have the IUI done on Saturday. The the 2week wait begins. I had no side effects of the Menopur but I am extremely irritated. Kinda like PMS x10. I feel bad for Jer I know I couldn't live with someone like me.Work has been kind of stressful  I really do appreciate James and what he does it sucks when he is gone. He does work pretty dang hard. Jer had a lecture from his mom today. I think she is super happy we are trying finally for kids. She said that she will be at our house everyday to make sure the babies are OK and helping with chores ect. She says there better not be any dog hair(we have 5 muts) Some people may find this intruding but I am ok with it. Jer's mom reminds me of my gram just a little less crazy then my gram. I really have come to appreciated Jer's parents and all they have done for us. They have the experience that I don't. When I hit 26 or 27 I realized I don't know nothing about life. Sometimes it can be hard but I wouldn't have the husband I do without her.

My gram was 10x's crazier. I felt bad for my mom. She had it hard. My mom would have the house spotless and my gram would always find something wrong. My mom had the house spotless one time and gram came in and stuck her finger in a plant and told my mom her plants are dry to water them. No the house looks nice just water your plants. I miss the 4 billion calls a day from her. The "Call me its an emergency" voice mails and really she just wanted to say Hi. I miss the stopping by my house at all hours to see what I was doing because she was lonely. The constant shit she would start because she could.  She loved drama. The lies and roomers of what I was doing wrong they were always entertaining. She was tough as nails on me and I was scared to death of her.  Now my brother and sisters weren't scared of her as much and they tested her and she kicked their ass seriously. My brother told her F-U and he ran she said oh ya you son of a bitch. He was all state in track and was fast she picked up a rock and pegged him right in the back of the head knocking him to the ground. She only hit me twice ever. She had a meanness that I didn't test for that I finished school and always succeeded at everything I have put my mind to. I miss it all because I know that she cared and loved me so much that she would do anything for her daughter. I was her 1st grandchild and she was so young to be grandma that I became her daughter too. I miss you Gram! Today has been 3 years from her passing. Happy Mothers day to all the women who are mom's and who one day soon will be mom's.

Shots

Soo. This is my fourth day of shots and I well I feel NOTHING. Jer and I were bickering at one another the other day and he says Oh I cant wait to do your shot tonight. I said bring it shots don't hurt. Well he brought it and did a great job! The medicine only burns for a couple minutes after. I go in Saturday to see how well my follicles are growing(eggs). Hopefully they are growing great and I can trigger and have my 1st IUI next week yippie then after the the 2 week waiting game begins(I am so dreading that). Hopefully my sister will be back in town so I can bug the crap out of her and she can keep me busy. This may not be appropriated but I found it freaking hilarious.

Jer is a sissy

I started the Menopur shots last night. I watched the video to make sure I mixed everything correctly. Well when it came time I had everything mixed and Jer was like Ill give you the shot. He was more then happy to do it of course. I showed him the needle and he of course goes "ooh that looks like its going to hurt" well he couldn't do it. I took the shot from him and went to give myself the shot in my belly and I psych'd myself out and couldn't do it because of what he said. I told Jer he had to and he went to try again and chickened out (what a sissy all this talk of I'm going to prick you) I grabbed the needle from him and stuck it in myself. It didn't hurt of course and Jer squeezed the syringe. I pulled it out and then it was sore for about 20mins. All in all not bad. I have to call my mom and give her kudos when she was preggers with my brother she got blood clots and had to give herself shots. She did this through her whole pregnancy everyday twice a day now that takes guts. I remember seeing the knots in her belly och!

Today I went to the Fertility doc and I was randomized for Menopur(injectable). I am super excited and so nervous I can't even express. Jer and I had talked to an Reproductive Endocrinology 3 years ago and were going to start the process of trying Clomid and IUI. For some reason we never continued after testing. I look back and I don't think it was the right time. Its almost surreal that we are moving forward. Menopur has a higher chance with multiples. Maybe we will get lucky and have triplets and be done forever.   If we have a daughter she will be Luciema Kate-Rae and if its a boy Kiko Floyd. The girls names are Jer's and my grandmothers names combined and the boys is a grandfather and my great uncle who was killed when he was young.  Honestly I am getting older and just even having one is a blessing whether its my own or adopted. They will have great parents who will love them. If we end up not being parents thats ok too we will just adopted more dogs they always love you even when they hit 13.  I go back to the doc Sat for more monitoring and then maybe back on Monday. I am grateful to have a job that lets me take off and make up time. Thanks Boss Man. Above a pic of my gram today really made me miss her, she would be the one I would share all this information with well now you get to listen to it.