Friday, June 22, 2012

Sad news

So here is an update to the last update. Well we all thought I wasn't pregnant. Wrong! We were on IUI #2 and I had been giving myself shots for 3 weeks. I wasn't developing any follicles like I did the month before. On my last ultrasound the doctor cancelled the IUI and said that she thought I ovulated and just radomly though we should do a pregnancy test. Jer didnt go in with me to the ultrasound so I was a total mess when I came out. He asked what happen and I said I tell you when we get in the car. I told him they think I maybe pregnant and they will call us. During the 2nd  month I had been having on and off bleeding and cramping and was super super mean. I was at work when one of the RE docs called and confirmed I was and they couldn't determine were the pregnancy was. So they were going to do another ultrasound in two days. I called Jer and he didn't believe me. I went home an hour later and started spotting really bad and knew something wasn't right. I went to the ER and the ultrsound tech was very quite. When she was doing the scan I seen the baby's hearbeat and the movements. I started to cry and told Jer everything is ok. The tech said she had to grab the doc. She did and the doc came in and told us that we had an ectopic pregnancy and I need surgery to remove it. As he was talking(he was an ass) I heard nothing he said just wanted to sock him. I think he could tell he left the room as fast as he came in. They took me back down stairs and as I was leaving the tech came out of the back room and she was balling. When that did it I LOST it. I started to cry. I went from having such hope to having my gut drop. Jer was great and comforting and helped me to suck it up and face the doc and the surgery. The OB's came down and explained everything. They were so amazing.   I went home and came back a few hours later for the surgery. Dr. Bruno(surgeon) ask how are you so calm and not in so much pain. I told her I think I am just numb. I warned all the docs that I am super mean when coming out of anesthesia they just laughed it off. I said ok. I wake up and I am in so much pain. I though my private part was going to fall off. I was yelling at them that I was in pain and whatever they gave me was like being drunk and blacking out. They told me I was 13 weeks and lost my right tube.  They took me to the bathroom and the nurse told me when I want to change just yell at her. I apparently got myself dressed and told her she should of been in the room to help. She laughed and said you were right you are mean coming out of surgery I told her duh I warned you guys. Fast forward today. I went back to work after a week. The recovery has been slow but not horrible. I have days were I cramp horrible and others that it doesn't hurt to bad. The bright side of all this is that we are able to get pregnant. We have to wait 6 week before we try again. Well 4 more to go. I dont know if we will do the drugs again. We are out of the Amigos study so have to pay for everything out of pocket. My insurance covers half of the IUI's. I am waiting for my records so I can meet with Dr. Kregar and see what the game plan is. I am scared to death of drugs and don't know if we should try on our own. The Amigos docs still are baffled how I got pregnant and they missed it. In my consultation with them they said we should continue trying with Menopur and another 2 IUI and if nothing then go to IVF. Ick IVF is so expensive. I would rather buy a Caddie and still adopt.-Jk I have no idea what Dr. Kregar will do he is a Kiaser doc and is a wonder doc who looks like he is stuck in the 80's. He has gold chains and wears his shirt down with his chest hairs out. If I didnt know his personality I would find him quite scary. So who know were we go. I have learned to be an advocate of my own health and know what to watch for. I know infertility is a new science and its only God who can give life. So I put my trust in him and whatever journey he takes us is were I go. Jer thinks he is going to punished and be blessed with 5 children. I would mind.

Nelly