My bday

Friday was my bday and it was the best ever. I got to have dinner with my best friend whom I havent seen a year. I missed her so much and it was so awesome to see her. Time never passes by with us. Best friends for 22 years sense were 11. Yikes I am getting older. Then my Jer bear with the help of my Auntie threw me a suprise bday party. Everyone came and my neices and newphew was there. My mom even came that was awesome of her. Thank you Jer and Cindy. I love you two very much. Well I love Jer a lot more in a different way. Thanks love you are truly my other half. Pics to come later. No I was still kind of sober.

Anyway to those who read this blog PLEASE subscribe to it. I know there are a lot of you out there I see the numbers.........

We had lost one more and the doctor told us to move onto IVF now. We'll that's too expensive so that's not an option. Maybe adopting next year. So my friends I caved and we have ourselves a new Princess. We have added a 6th and final dog to our clan. She is grand daughter of Killer Bill. Jer's family's infamous dog. She is a genetic experiment gone bad. Her mom is cute but the dad yikes! So I will introduce you to

Princess

She is super sweet but master manipulator. She runs the pack. She is all 5 dogs put into one. I'm a pack leader but when it comes to little dogs I have no idea what I am doing. 

She ate my new shoes. Poor things didn't have a chance

You have to keep everything off the floor or she will eat it, tear it up, or pee on it.

I was upset she tried to kill Jer's cuddle buddy. Now I have to cuddle with him. Princess is too little. This is her hiding under the pillow and the hole she made.

Okay one last thing. Notice anything? You know your cheap when you shop in a store that uses Tuna cans for wheels.

Fun times

I know I have been super bad about keeping my blog updated. Sorry my friends. This particular post isn't about baby stuff but more for my family. A month or so ago my uncle/auntie and me and Jer went up passed George Town looking for haunted places. We didn't find much but we went four wheeling in my husband's "Mini Me" Cindy and I were in the back and we had to look ahead at what we where going down, so we made some funny pics. Here are some of our funny pics!

I love my Auntie Cindy she is one of my best friends!

Now I know my husband well enough to know that he wont kill us but he will try to torment us. I tried to grab a pic of the hill we went down but that didn't happen. There is NO ONE I trust more than my Jer bear when it comes to four wheeling but I think he even freaks himself out. He has a little monster truck that he loves very much........It is his toy and he is a mechanic so you know it gets taken care of.

Anyway here is a my Crazy Angel baby. She love to clean just like her mama. We had a Auntie/Niece day. She got a Monster High Doll and some Lalapolusa game. I had to come home and clean and well she is free for labor.

Some how that pic came out side ways whatever...............He loves to do Auntie's hair.
Here is our newest project our boat getting it ready to hit the water. Jer is painting it the same color as his truck so they match...................

Last but not least my other niece and her being funny.

I leave you with her..........Have a good Memorial weekend.

Update

AF started on to the next cycle! BOOBOO but maybe next cycle.

IUI

I am hesitant to put this out there just yet because I in away dont want to Jenkins it. I think if I am quite and dont tell anyone then it will happen. We started this month on Clomid and did our first IUI sense last year. I had two great viable eggs on my left hand side and one on my right which makes no difference because I have no tube on my right. I keep telling Jer that I think its twin boys. He says your going to Jenkins yourself and have twin girls. Oh gosh that would be so scary!!! I seen my nieces and having raised Lauren I am petrified of girls. I will test in two weeks to find out if its positive or not. Then the HSG numbers begin. I am so scared of that I just would like to wait to see the baby(babies) when they are developed enough so I can see them on the ultrasound. Well that cant happen I am considered high risk so the min I found out its positive straight to blood work. You know going through all of this takes away the innocence of having a baby. You know the what if's...............I am trying to stay focused on eating right and telling the babies to land in the thing that looks like half orange. They need to land right in the middle and just grow grow grow........I look at my sisters in particular Lauren she has two beautiful girls. One that is a major brat just like her. She is getting a taste of what she was like hahahah. My mom really wasn't around and just kind of left and got remarried and had other kids. She is a good mom to them and they are great kids so I took Lauren in when she was 8 and she was with me off and on until she turned 18. I see the values that I instilled in her and now I see how she is using them to teach her girls. It makes me cry because if I can do that with my sister I think I would be great mom to my own children.  Part of the reason that I never wanted kids is I was scared to be like my mom and I now that I am older I am not anything like that and I proved that to myself when I seen Lauren and how an amazing mom she is. From the moment she was born she was like my little princess that loved to clean. My mom isnt a bad person just didnt make such great choices and I do love her. I just know if I had mad some bad choices that she has my gram would of whooped the holly hell out of me especially if I didn't take care of my kids. I cant forget my other sister Mystique she is stubborn and mis know it all but she makes a hell of a mom.  She is the disciplinary auntie. I am the nice auntie and the FAVORITE! I seen in my sisters a parts of me that they have. Its like half is Lauren and half is Mystique just more to the extremes. Haha poor them. Keep you posted.

Period time

Oh that damn period. I can feel it coming. I thought for sure this was my moth for a BFP. Nope I can feel the evil monster coming. Good thing is that I am nicer than I have been in months. Seems right before the Witch is coming I just loose my mind. I am bummed and kind of freaking out that I am getting older and how hard it has been to even get prego let alone how to stay prego. I am made an apt with a RE for March 8th. I think its time to get the ball rolling on this baby thing. Lord please let me be a great mom and teach our child the ways of you. I know I am not perfect but neither is teen mom. I am much nicer and older and i have a good husband and most important a relationship with you. She may too I am not knocking them girls. My eggs are just getting older and I don't want to be an old mom like my mom. Her and my brother are 45 years apart. Me and him are 27 years apart. I can be childless but by damn it I am going to travel and get me a supped up caddy like this one. Hopefully I can have both even it has cheerios and formula in the back. I will have leather seats. Jer will take one of these. How ugly huh?

TGIF

All I can say it Thank goodness its FRIDAY. What a long week. As I keep my mind off of are you are not pregnant. Work was exceptionally hard this week. I had to show my kind of authoritative side and I had an end-user that was so pushy. Anyway she was able to get me to use my angry energy. I NEVER do that. I am usually whatever.........Uggh the pushy ness of I WANT a new computer mine is so slow. When I get her computer back its Fine. Ok deep breath sigh...............Wasted energy gone. Life of working with technology. My dad wrote he has got himself into some trouble so I am going to see him Monday in court. 52 and side a dillship. I love him though he tries and is when isnt being a dillship is an amazing dad. I miss him so much and going through what we are with Jer's stuff I could really use his support. Nope he has a dillship moment. Please pray for this month we have a lot going with stuff for Jer and my dad. I pray we can move past what happen last year and let relationships be mended and everyone can move forward with life.  Pray my dad can get help with his addiction and to finally stay clean and out of trouble. That he would forgive himself and know that God's sovereignty has already forgiven him. He can get his anxiety under control  My gramps isnt doing to well either the dementia is taking it toll on him. My uncle John's drinking is out of control too and his health is not going to get better with that beer and them fireball shots he loves so much. I swear I am just going to keep beating him up when he is drunk. He has liquid courage when he fights and the next day he calls me and says hita we cant fight no more. You broke my finger or hita I have bruises all over. I am so sore. I call him yellow or sick boy for what is doing to his liver. He says I am direct and mean. I just say call it as it is. Why lie? I tell my dad the same thing. Funny thing is my uncles good friend is a cross dresser and my uncle and ex-con. Were can find that in the same room. Its awesome. Anyway I am over this week and ready to play with my hairy brats. Who  by the way after cleaning for hours last week decided to get past the dog gate and trample mud everywhere. So I am cleaning again. Oh well I dont mind it Jer is awesome and helps me. I am so lucky to have my hubby he is a great husband. I find myself more falling more in love with him as time passes. We went through the worst year outside of my gram dying and made it through. In the darkest moments you find who you can count on. Here is a pic of my harry babies and my little niece.

Preseed

I have been reading about Preseed for a while and girls blogging about it. Google it if you dont know what it is I love it! I went to Target and got some yesterday and I told Jer I am fertile and its time to get it on. My eggs are shriveling and I showed him the Preseed told him Happy B-day. He says you HATE me dont you and I said why yes I do  now get into bed he proceeds to have a big cramp in his leg. Totally ruins the moment and welll.....................what  I am not giving up so neither is he by damn it :-)

I haven't been keeping up this for a while. No real new updates just keep on trucking on with work. We are preventing from trying for a baby but if it happens awesome and if not then I will love many more dogs.........I love my 5 brats they keep me super busy with all their hair and muddy messes. Who knows what life brings down the road.